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Why am I like this? I see someone trying to remind me not to boost un-CWed politics into their timeline, and I wonder why anyone doesn't want to be overstimulated.

Am I the only potentially #autistic person who receives pleasure from being overstimulated? I love hot pepper foods, the hotter the better. I love all forms of carbonated drinks, and thoroughly enjoy that my rather hyper senses are drenched in a burning sensation as the carbonation goes down. I like combining these two as well, drinking carbonated beverages just after consuming super spicy food. I also find this last step is perhaps the quickest way to eliminate the residual burning.

I also somehow thought that essenced soda water actually had a strong flavor on its own and that the "drove the truck past a fruit orchard" jokes were nonsensical, since surely everyone can taste the almost fruit punch like strength of fruit flavor from the soda water, right?

I wish I could stop immersing myself in social media garbage every time I look at my social media reader apps. I actively click through every content warning prompt, because I don't want to miss anything. When I probably am doing untold psychic damage to myself in the process of reading all this crap.

I really need a media manager to tone down the garbage on my accounts so I can stop seeing this lot, but then I already do a fairly good job by spending multiple days at a time just not paying attention to social media at all. It helped that I switched my fedi usage entirely to client apps, and closed the web tabs I had opened on my desktop, and use a janky ass desktop client for fedi. And for Bluesky, I follow less than 200 people, and my feed doesn't auto refresh, so I barely see anything when I do look at that tab.

Another thing that does psychic damage to me, though, is being exposed to ideas of new electronics I may want. People keep bringing me back to wanting a damn gaming monitor for my desktop, with full P3 color range and high refresh OLED. But I'll never have the money for that. That's a form of stimulation I wish I could get less of, because I'm fairly happy already with what I have now. Stuff like this makes me wish tech would stop advancing incrementally and actually make some leaps and bounds so that the updates would be justifiable purchases.

So I guess I like some forms of hyperstimulation, but could use near zero exposure to other forms of stimulation, due to how they make me feel about life. I feel like I'm living when I'm burining my senses or listening to loud music, but feel like the world sucks when I'm exposed to all the depressing crap I find all too much of. I wish I could strike a balance somewhere, but I find that next to impossible.

Oh well, bed time, maybe I'll feel better again in the morning.